worried

sick.

tonight

i made delicious vegan gluten free cupcakes.

maybe this gluten allergy won't suck too bad if i can make good baked goods.

molly came over today for a shoot.

i haven't seen her in like 3 weeks, but things never change.

no matter how long it's been.

still haven't heard from andrew.

cool beans.

the hills in on mtv.com

must watch!

fix me

fix my head

fix me please

i don't wanna be dead

sick

of being sick.

i'm sick of having my back hurt all the time for no reason.

i'm sick of being broke.

i'm sick of doing school work.

i'm sick of not being motivated.

i'm sick of not having time to have sex.

i'm sick of eating.

i'm sick of being fat.

i'm sick of everything right now.

all i want is a hug.

and for someone to tuck me into bed tonight.

lard ass

i'm getting really fat again.

i'm trying not to eat very much and it's mildly successful.

i figure if i just drink tons of water like i used to and drink more coffee my metabolism will kickstart.

then maybe i won't gag when i look in the mirror.