god i'm so bored

i've got half an hour left at work.

then i'm going home to chill out, then heading off to north station to meet deanna so we can catch a train to haverhill.

hopefully bill can go so i'll get to see him.

so for anyone who actually cares/reads this, you're probably wondering why all of the sudden bill is popping back up.

well folks, i ended things on wednesday with andrew.

not like get out of my life end, just no more romantic connection.

we still talk every day.

i realized there was no point in staying with him because i was so unhappy, and i realized how dumb i was to end things with bill.

tuesday night at like 2 in the morning i proceeded to spill my guts out to bill via text in an attempt to maybe get this boy back in my life.

but i've realized even if things don't work out with him, i'm happy with my decision.

i need to learn how to be happy, and so far just being andrew's friend is working out really well.

i feel good about myself for the first time in awhile.

i felt cute yesterday for the first time in weeks.

i love my nightmare before xxxmas mug.

tomorrow will be a good day

today i had my first critique for color photo.

it went really well.

eirik seems to really like my work.

no one said anything negative.

tomorrow i have to wake up mad early and go to work.

hopefully leaving around 3ish.

then heading to haverhill with deanna for roadrage.

hopefully bill will be there so i get to see him.

aaaand then deanna and i wouldn't have to take the train back to boston.

i've been listening to a lot of anthony green lately.

and have been feeling good about myself.

i hate this waiting game

my stomach hurts.

a mix of anticipation and dairy products.

i'd like it to be friday.

deanna, cookie baking and roadrage.

if i slept through tomorrow that'd be ok.

fuck you

i hate being female.

it's february?!

already?!?!

where did all the time go!?

hanging out with deanna, tony and jordan today.

then we're all driving up to dover, nh for the effort show.

it's going to be a fun day.

i like that andrew leaving hasn't changed the relationship i have with "his friends".

if anything i feel like i'm becoming better friends with the people he knew years before i did.