relieved

things feel better now.

halloween is tomorrow and i still dont know what to be.

i wish i was a more decisive person.

i've got class at 4:45...i don't want to go.

the bird and the bee is nice afternoon music.

i tried cocoa pebbles for the first time today.

they were fucking bomb.

gross

it's really depressing outside today.

and i have to go sit in a hallway for like an hour to get signed off on my schedule for next year.

and i was a cunt on the phone to andrew last  night.

for absolutely no reason.

i want to get a rice crust pizza from tj's tonight.

or my soy cream out of andrew's freezer.

all i want is some shitty food and a large coffee.

sick of 210

i'm sick of my dorm.

it's so white and feels like a hospital.

and i hate only having one window, that doesn't even open.

all i want is to have an apartment with kristine where we have a bay window that we can sit next to when we eat breakfast on weekend mornings.

it was a good day

today while i was standing in line at the photo cage a girl in my class turned around and looked at me and said:

"y0u're not wearing all your thick eyeliner today"

i said "no, not today...i didn't feel like dealing with it"

she replied "you look pretty without it."

it made me feel good.

then i had a good one on one critique with abe.

he really likes my work.

sick

i've been getting sick a lot lately.

all i want to eat is stuff that has wheat in it.

or dairy in it.

so i eat it, and get sick.

surprise, surprise.

last night i went to a basement show in pawtucket at "easy axxess"

the effort, outrage, product of waste, soul control, golden age and jordan's new band played.  

it was a rad space and there weren't too many dumb kids there.

then i got back to andrew's and he told me he misses me when i don't sleep at his place.

how cute is that?