it's a bikini kill kind of day

i got stared at like i was a hunk of steak by the half a dozen workmen in my yard when i came back from getting coffee with tricia.

back in franklin

the family + lindsay made our way to long island yesterday for my uncle's 50th surprise birthday party.

the party was actually a lot of fun.

it was at this fancy shmancy country club so it was fun to get dressed up and for the first time since i've been a vegetarian there was tons of food i could eat at a family function.

my family is a bunch of carnivores which generally results in me going hungry.

i just attempted to watch twilight.

i didn't even finish it because i was so disappointed.

i need to go out and buy eclipse tomorrow.

i'm so hooked on the books, but the movie was just so horrendous.

i have to work monday-thursday this week.

i hope i can make it to somerville sometime this week.

i want cuddle sessions with bill and movie parties with ashley and christine.

rough night

last night i read a zine that andrew gave me and it totally fucked me up.

i couldn't stop crying after i read it.

it brought back some really awful and uncomfortable memories.

i couldn't sleep afterwards and when i finally managed to pass out i kept having weird dreams and waking up.

i maybe pulled off 4 hours of sleep last night.

tricia texted me when i woke up saying one of her cats got sick and they didn't have the money to help him so they have to put him down.

i feel awful this morning.

it feels like there's a whole in my stomach.

however, i started working out again and i lost a pound in the past 2 days.

i want to lose 10 by the time i go back to school.

new alice in wonderland looks amazing

it's kristine's birthday today

i'm feeling so empty right now.

this weather really isn't helping either.