tomorrow

everything will be perfect

new room

new year

new tv shows

kristine

justin

andrew

lindsay

my brother's girlfriend is the greatest

she buys me presents for no reason

and gives the best hugs.

real hugs.

not fake hugs.

the sun just came out.

it's been gross and overcast all day.

it's nice to see something happy.

729

i had a good day at work today.

i hope my last 3 days are just as nice.

just watch this...my brother made it

fuck

fuck fuck fuck

my stomach hurts so bad

it's so bloated that i look preggo

i can't eat without getting sick anymore

dear E-Line

please run me over the next time i try to get on you to come home.

nom

i eat too much

i need to stop it

i always feel hungry

and then i eat

and then i feel sick

i'm going to gain back the 20 pounds i've lost

i wonder if anyone at school will notice

i wonder if i have stomach cancer

time, move faster

my mom is killing me

very slowly but surely

she's always angry because of this addition

she didn't plan out how much it was going to cost

and now she's freaking out

and now she's angry

and stressed

and all she does is cry

at me

andrew called me from chicago 3 times today so far

i wish i was there with him

he saw a capybara

we're going to go together next summer

or maybe with deanna in october

i hope we go with deanna

monday cannot come soon enough

i miss kristine

hollow

i feel like there's a space

a big empty space

right where my stomach should be

right where my happiness should be

it's felt that way since i left the city yesterday

since i left home

morning

tylenol and raisin bran for breakfast

strangers outside my window

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