someday

i hope to be a milf.

a classy yet still hot milf like victoria beckham with a psychotic kid with a temporary tattoo on his forehead.

if i ever have kids, they're going to be so fucked up. 

i'm pretty sure the people i work with think i'm an idiot

because i constantly ask questions so i don't fuck up while entering people's information.
i deal with people's loan and scholarship money most of the time.
obviously i don't want to fuck that up.
don't look at me like i'm retarded when i ask you a question about if i'm entering the information correctly.
ughhh

i told them i had tons of homework to do so i had to leave early.
i might just go home tonight instead of tomorrow if i can't find anything to do tonight.
kristine's not home and molly's hanging out with mike so what's the point of being in the city when i can go home and have a nice home cooked dinner?

on a side note, the carrier is amazing.
seeing them last night put me in such a good mood.

solid night

SCORE!

not so good

i woke up this morning and just felt mehh.

i just feel kind of bummed out for no reason.

i really don't enjoy feeling this way.

i haven't really done anything today except make peanut butter and fluff cups for kristine to bring to robotics tomorrow.

and then look on craigslist at apartments.

i kind of wished i just stayed in bed all day.

hopefully tonight will make me feel better.

now i'm sitting at the kitchen table on my computer listening to new my summer as a salvation soldier songs, waiting for bill to call me.

and feeling really lame that i'm just sitting and waiting for a boy to call me...seriously, who does that?

peace out on campus housing

looks like next year i probably won't be living on campus.

thanks to justin who didn't get his paperwork on time, thus making it so kristine and i don't get housing unless she's a CA.

i'm kind of hoping she's a CA just so i'll have my own room hopefully on the 7, 8 or 9th floor.

but at the same time i think living in an apartment would do me good.

i'll feel like i have a real home.

and then i can have people come and go as they please and not have to only have one overnight guest at a time.

kristine and i are looking for apartments next week.

hopefully we'll find something close to school.

i bet we'll have the world's most adorable apartment.

it will always smell like freshly baked cookies.

molly came over tonight and we ate burgers/veggie burgers and fries and then came to my room and i taught her how to bake cookies.

we probably made about 100 of them.

going to class is overrated

kristine and i skipped marxism today.

instead we went out and ran a bunch of errands that needed to get done and bought school supplies.

i've got class in an hour and a half.

then molly's coming over to learn how to bake cookies.

tomorrow i don't have school so i'm planning on sleeping late.

then writing papers and catching up on school work.

then seeing bill when he gets off work.

saturday i have to go home and to celebrate my birthday with the family because otherwise i won't see them until after i get back from chicago.

only 10 more days!

kristine and i are saving up to buy a fennec fox

it will look like this.

and it will be named love nugget.

but i'm going to nickname it zero.

everytime i listen to the gaslight anthem

it makes me want to have my super long hair back.

and to be covered in the tattoos i've wanted for so long.

and to be holding your hand while driving in your car.

thank you massart

for thinking it was a good fucking idea to have a god damn fire drill at 9 o'clock on a Tuesday morning.

good fucking job...ughhh.

i feel really run down today.

i wish i slept better.

last night deanna and i went to the other side for dinner.

i've really started loving that place.

it's so dark and loud, which sounds unappealing, but it's actually really relaxing being in there for some reason.

we sat upstairs and watched this really adorable hipster cook make our food.

i had one of the best omelets i've ever eaten.

deanna had a waffle of epic proportions. 

breakfast food at 10 at night is wonderful.

i'm skipping my lit class again today.

my odyssey paper still isn't done.

i figure if i skip class i can finish it and put it in my teacher's mailbox on my way to my 1:30 class.

300-400 words to go!

thanks dad for giving me your ADD!

i officially have not gotten laid in a month

fuck my life.

good morning world

yes please

i've gotta get out of massachusetts

i've gotta get out of massa-fucking-chusetts

next year

i think next year if i live in an apartment, take less classes and pick up another job/more hours at the business office i might get a dog.

i really want a dog.

a little one that i can carry around, like a yorkie.

friday nights

kristine and i had a photobooth session

then she left, and so did justin.

i spent my night alone baking cookies and making peanut butter cups.

as sad and lonely as it sounds, i really enjoyed just some time to chill out by myself and make baked goods.

baking makes me really happy.

and i took a shower so my hair was curly this morning.

i missed my curly hair.

i'm glad it's back.

lindsay lohan & lily allen

my favorites are now bffs!?

woohooo!!!

i was really happy this afternoon

i need more nights like last night

jason and tony stayed over last night.

i spent the night eating grasshopper take out with jason, tony, bill, kristine and justin and watching tim & eric awesome show and weird shows on A&E.

lots of laughter was had.

and mass amounts of junk food was consumed.

i woke up happy this morning.

it was really great.

chicago in 15 days!

little brother

jason is coming to stay for the night.

i love hanging out with my little brother.

it's going to be a fun night.

apparently alec is going to be down in Louisiana for awhile.

rachel is moving into our house until he and vicki come back.

wow, awesome fucking day

i'm wicked behind in photo.

i've got 3 papers due for marxist perspective on art.

i've got a 5 pager on the odyssey due next week.

i've got a "completed body of work" for portfolio due next monday and i haven't even finished my first piece.

i had an anxiety attack today for the first time in a month.

and my mom just called me and told me that alec fell off a ladder onto concrete while he was helping build a house in Louisiana.

he has a severe concussion, lacerations all over his body and he broke his nose and hip [which he's already had replaced], meaning there's a good chance he's going to have trouble walking.

awesome.

fuck my life.

i really need a hug.

boxed in

i put all your things in a box today.

not because i want to forget you, but because i'm starting over.

it feels better in my room now.

yet another reason why lindsay lohan is amazing

that's right...she's wearing a descendents shirt.

i want this

matthew woodson's work is amazing.

http://www.ghostco.org/

have you ever sat alone and watched the sun set?

tonight i sat and watched the sun set over the fens while listening to the "die die die" by avett brothers on repeat.

it was cold outside and my hands went numb.

but it was okay because it was so pretty.

i smiled for an hour straight afterwards.

sometimes weird things can cure being on the verge of depression.

i think i'm going to grow my hair out again.

i miss having the biggest, messiest hair in the room.

my hair ruled when it looked like this.

way to go boo boo

kristine finally stood up to marissa yesterday and told her what an inconsiderate bitch she is most of the time.

i'm glad she finally grew some balls.

solid day

woke up at 8.

watched jason run at hocks with mom & dad.

went out for lunch at grasshopper with the parentals and ordered way too much food so i have like 3 pounds of leftover lo mein.

came home and did some homework.

somehow fell asleep for an hour.

woke up, watched bear grylls with justin.

drove to milford with bill to see telfair play.

met his friend paige.

saw casper......awkward

drove back from milford.

kisses and smiles.

eating fries and watching tim & eric with justin.

things are looking up.

i actually don't hate myself and my life so much anymore.

leftovers on a friday night

eating my leftover fried veggie rice with fake chicken that i made for molly and i on wednesday night.

it's really yummy.

i haven't eaten much today so i might just scarf down the whole fucking bowl.

i keep forgetting to eat.

i feel like i'm getting sick so i'm staying in tonight to avoid actually getting sick.

i've got too much to do to be sick.

so i'm going to do my homework this evening so i can have fun and have nothing to worry about this weekend.

seeing jason run at hocks tomorrow.

then maybe doing somehting with bill.

fuck valentines day.

kristine and i made mean valentines tonight.

like this one:

breakfast of champions

thanks

"hey kid, haven't talked to you in a few days....you alive?"

"please don't refer to me as 'kid'. i feel like you use it in a really condescending way and that you are talking down to me."

"sorry i didn't realize it bothered you. i call a lot of people kid and not because i think any less of them for any reason."

"whether or not you realize it, it always seems that you use it when you are treating me more as a child, or someone less intelligent than an equal. it comes out to me as really derogatory"

"i'm sorry i didn't realize hat you felt i was coming off that way. i use 'kid' as a term of endearment and not as something derogatory"

wow...thank you for showing your appreciation for my concern for you well being.  

it smells like spring outside today

my new roadrage shirt is now a mini-dress.

i just don't care anymore is my ass is hanging out.

not okay

i just sat down on the floor of my shower and cried because i randomly started thinking about mr. plant.

it's weird how these things just hit you.

this is the first time i've cried in like 2 weeks.

kristine was high as a kite this evening

i love my roommate/best friend.

she let's me give her knuckle tattoos.

bill ended up having the day off so he came over for a little bit and dealt with kristine being ridiculous.

he even took off his shirt so she could see all his tattoos when she asked about them.

what a nice boy.

all i want

is to wear shorts, t-shirts, sunglasses and flip flops outside.

and to not feel like i need to put on makeup.

and to not care how my hair looks.

i'd like it to be friday so i get to see saran.

valentine's day is coming up

what's the big deal?

even when i had a boyfriend for this "holiday" i never felt the need to celebrate it.

do we really need a specific day to show someone we care?

i honestly don't get what the big deal is.

if i see a couple kissing in public on saturday i might get violent.

who knows, maybe i'm just bitter because no one's done anything for me on v-day.

even when i had a boyfriend.

i haven't had sex in like 3 weeks.

fuck my life.

i blog too much

kristineatiyeh: you should just to like a thin black border to make it look like it's crisp and shiz
kristineatiyeh: just tape it off on the inner edges with masking tape
xericathemighty: sometimes i forget how smart you are, seeing as your a woman and whatnot
xericathemighty: well i mean, all woman are really good for is running errands, baking and doing laundry
kristineatiyeh: i've accepted that i'll never be a good driver, a scholar, o

r anything more intellectual than whatever skills and knowlege i need to make coffee, dinner, and baked goods. it's cool.
xericathemighty: and if we don't wear makeup and do our hair we'll never get married and have 2.5 children and a golden retriever named sunny

i'm taking my life back, it's fucking mine

i never want to go back to the person i was last semester.

life is too short for that shit.

today is the 3 year anniversary of mr. plants death.

the avett brothers

i can't get enough of them lately.

they're wonderful to listen to when i've got homework to be done.

last night deanna and i went to kat and JR's for her birthday party.

it was kind of awkward at first, but i had fun.

on the way back to porter square deanna and i got a whole pound of delicious waffle fries [after seeing bill eating some good looking fries] from wings over somerville and ate them on the T.

got back around 1 and kristine wasn't home.

she showed up around 8 this morning.

we threw on sweats and ate waffles for breakfast at the caf.

we ended up lying in a booth talking about men for like half an hour.

i love living with one of my best friends.

now i'm showered and sitting in some new underwear that's really cute and comfortable.

this underwear to be exact:

bad habits

i'm falling back into the habit of not sleeping well/enough at night and compensating for it by drinking coffee.

i had an iced coffee with my lunch.

and now i'm drinking a large coffee for dinner.

it's probably a bad habit to pick up again, but god do i love the feeling of drinking coffee.

drinking coffee always makes me feel happy.

i think it's cause it makes me think about my dad.

or because it's just because i'm getting hyped up on caffeine.

my dad rules.

i can't wait to go home on thursday and see him.

it's a good morning

loving my new shirt.

i have huge dark circles under my eyes from not sleeping enough.

off to espresso royale to write that paper that was due last wednesday.

then going out to buy film.

then probably off to kat's party when deanna gets off work.

stoked

amy's vegan ziti bowl.

red tye dye roadrage shirt.

awesome show.

good people.

nice boy.

god i'm so bored

i've got half an hour left at work.

then i'm going home to chill out, then heading off to north station to meet deanna so we can catch a train to haverhill.

hopefully bill can go so i'll get to see him.

so for anyone who actually cares/reads this, you're probably wondering why all of the sudden bill is popping back up.

well folks, i ended things on wednesday with andrew.

not like get out of my life end, just no more romantic connection.

we still talk every day.

i realized there was no point in staying with him because i was so unhappy, and i realized how dumb i was to end things with bill.

tuesday night at like 2 in the morning i proceeded to spill my guts out to bill via text in an attempt to maybe get this boy back in my life.

but i've realized even if things don't work out with him, i'm happy with my decision.

i need to learn how to be happy, and so far just being andrew's friend is working out really well.

i feel good about myself for the first time in awhile.

i felt cute yesterday for the first time in weeks.

i love my nightmare before xxxmas mug.

tomorrow will be a good day

today i had my first critique for color photo.

it went really well.

eirik seems to really like my work.

no one said anything negative.

tomorrow i have to wake up mad early and go to work.

hopefully leaving around 3ish.

then heading to haverhill with deanna for roadrage.

hopefully bill will be there so i get to see him.

aaaand then deanna and i wouldn't have to take the train back to boston.

i've been listening to a lot of anthony green lately.

and have been feeling good about myself.

i hate this waiting game

my stomach hurts.

a mix of anticipation and dairy products.

i'd like it to be friday.

deanna, cookie baking and roadrage.

if i slept through tomorrow that'd be ok.

fuck you

i hate being female.

it's february?!

already?!?!

where did all the time go!?

hanging out with deanna, tony and jordan today.

then we're all driving up to dover, nh for the effort show.

it's going to be a fun day.

i like that andrew leaving hasn't changed the relationship i have with "his friends".

if anything i feel like i'm becoming better friends with the people he knew years before i did.